Saturday, May 22, 2010

A Summer Night: The Trampoline

The lantern was dim next to the trampoline. I was lying down on the warm summer night looking up at the stars, letting my mind go blank and thinking of nothing except for this endless summer and all the journeys to come. I look forward to every second of life and close my eyes, beginning to sing "Seasons of Love", my favorite song that we sung in 8th grade choir.
I start to picture riding my Baby Blue Cruiser with the tan wicker basket filled with books and my swim stuff through town to the pool. The second I see the water I jump in with my striped green bikini on and float to the bottom, embracing the water. When it's time for me to go I think of all of my options: sitting around a campfire in a lawn chair with my friends roasting marshmallows, wearing shorts and wrapped in a blanket. Or perhaps a movie with my summer romance or my friends.
The next day I'll ride through town in my RayBan's, Vans, and any other piece of summer clothing I'll be wearing that day to get ice cream with my best friend, or running to catch the bus to the mall.
All the perks of summer, of being free, just skimmed my mind. As I opened my eyes I smile, knowing that it was the thoughts of what was to come that made the summer endless.

Green Grass

Honestly I think the best way to relax is walking through a field with nothing but soft, green GREEN grass barefoot, while listening to music and having a book in your bag. The feeling of it just makes you relax no matter how annoyed or frustrated or confused you are. I think I walked through my school football field for about 20 minutes just wiggling my toes in the grass, I left though becasue I think people found it a little odd that I was walking in circles :) Summer please come for me

Wednesday, May 19, 2010

Big Red Balloon

I float high, higher, highest up in the sky, ike a big red balloon flaoting away and wondering about the clear blue sky with its stormy weather ahead, the sun is shining bright on this life I love and as Bob Marley said "Love the life you live and live the life you love" .

Sunday, May 16, 2010


Destiny... what is it really? Future, fate? I never really know, I always think it's the Greeks pulling strings and cutting some more, making life crazy and weird. MY idea of destiny is to go to the places and meet the people I'm destined to meet and see, along with living the life that can only exist in my dreams.

Here's to cutting string...
**** sample! fun fun :)
It’s a reflex for my heart to jump into my throat when I see you. It’s a reflex for me to cry when I think of the pain I’ve felt. It’s a reflex to laugh at what’s funny, and it’s a reflex to cringe away from anything hurtful or unknown, because I’m too scared to expand my borders. I don’t know why this is, I guess it’s just the way that I am.

Slow reflexes I suppose…

Far isn't Far Enough

I'm not going to lie: I love living where I do more than I can describe. It's like every child's playland and  I wouldn't trade it for anything. But sometimes it feel like I'm trapped here; life gets the better of me up until the point where I'm ready to run so far away that far isn't far enough. I want to meet new people and go places that are unique and different from the place I know. I want to start fresh and switch shoes with someone for a day (or maybe a life time) every now and then too. But like so many I know who also feel trapped, helpless, frustrated, we can't exactly drive to far away places and live the life we want. Baby steps; that's all we're taking, nothing more. I've cried for a change in this life more than once, but there's no other way but forward....
I guess I'm just... lost.

Wednesday, May 05, 2010

Wondering More...

I guess I never really asked to be unique, hell, none of us did. I can't help but think about it: I grew up faster than the other kids in my grade. Not in age, but in mentality. All of them are clueless about the world they live in and the benefits of living where we do. They don't see how easy it is to take everything for granted. I'm not going to lie: there are kids in my grade who are going to drop out of highschool and have nowhere to go and nothing to do, and they'll be wishing for a redo that we all know was never there in the first place. Yet I feel like only several of my friends and myself understand that this is the greatest time of our lives. Going places that some adults haven't even been to, laying under the stars on those long summer nights wishing that they could stay like that forever, falling in and out of love even if it is just an infatuation, skiing, learning, Living. They're taking it all for granted while I'm taking in every second of it, documenting and photographing as much as I can so that I can keep a clear image. It's unbelievable that I've come so far in what feels like so quickly. But I never asked to have such a sharp view of the world, to go through the occuring and reoccuring events of a teeange girls life that are becoming surprisingly common in the U.S, and well pushing the point of insanity that she wonders if running is actually an option. They always say that there will always be obstacles but to be frank: life is just one huge obstacle that we're going to love, hate, enjoy, remember, despise, and cherish until our last breath. Live life to the fullest, because you only get one.

You Can't Help But Hope

Still counting down the days to the end of my middle school career. It seems like now of all times I actually at a risk of not getting everything in on time. It's crazy at how quickly this school year went by. To be honest I'm half sad, half glad. I'm ready to move on to bigger and better things in highschool, but I'm going to miss the easy going assuarance of middle school. Although it holds shady memories for me, it was still a place of knowledge, and a period of time that really helps set your future for highschool and for life. I learned who you can and can't trust, and I got a better grip on who I am, but I mostly learned to live life to the fullest. Hang out with friends, go crazy, and to all my younger readers: Hang in there. It's all worth it in the end.
Counting down the days...