Tuesday, May 31, 2011



Haley we take marvelous pictures like so yes???

I love these. So. Freaking. Much. Oh my God.
These are the kind of pictures that make you have those exasperated moments where you just go
"Abababa, but but but, do you see it?! DOH!"
Yeah shit like that makes me crazy too.

Goddamnit- got a 76% overall on my history final.
Test #1- 93%
Test #2- 67%
Test #3- 84%
Test #4- 70%
Damn you Averages- Fu*king everything up.

summer....Summer....Summer... SUMMER!!!!!!!!!!!!! (what the hell I just started to wonder if that's actually how you spell summer, but it is???)

Okay well I have nothing better to do, and don't have any new pics that I can share at this exact moment (oh no believe me I have pictures but they are on my laptop, which is not here right now, I'm just using my dad's girlfriends and so yeah let me back all this up....)
Okay- Hi, Hello, Shalom... yeah. So: I am home from my family reunion/ not so shopping trip and am all moved into my Dad's new house!
I'm home right now because guess what- I'm done with math and Spanish for the rest of the year!! YAY!
And by the rest of the year I mean the classes I'm not at right now and the two tomorrow that make up the last half day of school which I am also not going to because why the hell should I wake up at seven just to go to school until noon and do nothing?
I really don't get why schools have that half day equals the last day. I mean seriously, end it with a full day and call it good. Okay I'm going of an a rant/tirade/ramble-whatever.
So yeah- going to school at a half day today because I have a frickin history final 3rd hour. But then at 3:30 I'm going to my first softball game- Woo!
So excited :D
So Shopping/Moving.
The family reunion was fun, but the shopping aspect that I was excited for three months for was a downer. I was relying on most of my new wardrobe to come from this trip and uh, guess what?

Go to favorite store ------> Find all this amazing stuff that I've been looking for for like a year and a half.--------> *person* yelling at me because I'm slowing everyone down (WHICH I WASN'T, everyone else was taking up just as much time and we all left at the same time or at least within five minutes of each other-----> end up having to put a bunch of stuff back because my sister and I together went over a hundred dollars (and by the way- when we went there in December we went over $500 together and *person did not care.)----> Go to some poorly lit fluorescent store that had some cute stuff but mostly looked like tramp clothes and "punk" items pre-pubescent girls like------> All in all get three shirts, a romper, a bracelt and a dress that had to be returned because I couldn't breath (exchanged.)

Next day: Spend an hour waiting in line to eat in this egg place for breakfast, while getting made fun of by *said person* and getting more pissed-----> stay at the gross egg place for like two hours-----> return my dress, and don't even get to go shopping in this HUGE Forever21 that I saw so many things in, and did not get my shorts that I put on hold DX-----> Got yelled at again because I took five minutes in the damn store trying to return the dress-------> Go get luggage for Greece, don't get anything there either----> Eat a goddamn McDonalds where I might as well eat raw fat-----> drive home.
No amazing neww wardrobe.

Next day: Move.
The house is really nice, I just wish we were unpacked already.

As soon as summer gets here, I'm taking a little pre-vacation from my family before I'm forced to be with them for 10 days, some of it on a plane for 9+ hours.
Let's just say- this summer better be fantastic...
I'll have pictures up later- laptop is at mom's and photos on camera here. See the dilemma??
Lots of good/cool/amazing/ whatever you want to call them pictures coming up :)

Sara Bareilles - Uncharted

<3 love this song and this video :)

Thursday, May 26, 2011

Gah. I want them.

"And in that moment, I swear we were infinite." Pg. 39- the perks of being a wallflower

My painting! It is finished!

My paint palette

Haley's Mac N' Cheese Pic

Colored Pencils

Slide #1

Slide #2

Slide #3

...really need to paint my toes...

This. Is the image of summer.

Shoes off, feet in the river

Haley's hat of Lost things...

I. want. this. Polaroid.

Random Ass Dandelion up in my tree.....?

Yeah this is how I spent my Wednesday night- blowing my nose due to allergies and reading with my two favorite childhood things. Life is good.

Haley lent me this, and so far, it's pretty marvelous.

All these pictures feel like those infinite moments Charlie talks about... I know how to describe them now.
I guess it's where you feel so happy and full of golden light that you never really want it to end. All these wonderful random moments of bliss that life throws at you when you're feeling down, or like you're life hasn't been exciting lately. Yeah those moments might not be heart-stopping thrillers either, but you know, they make you relish in the concept of words like youth and summer and happiness. I've always loved the word infinite, but it never had so much depth and description until Charlie used to it to talk about how he felt watching Sam in the back of her pick up, her dress kicking up in the wind like something majestic (my imagination tells me it's sky blue... silk and floor length...). The word feels heavy now- like it has so much definition to describe so many moments. With just a single word.
I look forward to more moments like yesterday; eating ice cream by the river with Haley. Taking pictures where rays of the sun reflect in frame while you feel it kissing your skin with a nice warmth. It feels like summer.... it's just mind boggling a little bit- knowing how to describe all those amazing moments I didn't know how to describe until I read it in one perfect little sentence.

"And in that moment, I swear we were infinite." Pg. 39

I guess I've been feeling kind of sad lately- despite shopping Saturday, moving Monday, summer Wednesday, and Greece pretty soon. Despite being done with Science, English, Math, and Spanish, and despite my dad getting me What Shall I Wear Today? as a spontaneous present because I got A's/B's on my finals. I keep having battles with myself, and battles with people I'm trying to convince myself I love. I've been having epiphany's I accpet, and epiphany's I've been trying to fight. I keep getting scared for the future, whether it's close or distant. But it's little unplanned moments like that that make me feel like I can breathe and escape. You can't and don't need to plan out every single part to your life out, and then expect it all to go smooth.
It doesn't... but then again, maybe it does. I don't know.
The point is I feel lighter... and heavier.
But mostly
I'm just doing my best
to be

Tuesday, May 24, 2011

Do You Wanna Touch Me (Oh Yeah)

To be frank I'm just putting these on my blog now so I can listen to them during Spanish hahaha :)

Monday, May 23, 2011

Glee - Rose's Turn[HD FULL STUDIO]

Oh my God Kurt, how do you always manage to make me cry?!

Sunday, May 22, 2011

Glee Cast - Bust Your Windows (Glee Cast Version)


Fifi Lapin/What Shall I Wear Today

Oh my goodness- this is just too cute...

Draw a few sketches of models, print them out like paper dolls, and if I have an outfit idea: sketch the outfit, put it on the model like paper clothes, and ta-da, Paper Dolls, home edition.

 Oh. My. Dear. Sweet. Lord. I think I'm an addict of this blog- mostly for it's wonderfully adorable illustrations. I looked at it last night for three plus hours, and I'm kind of obsessed with the illustrations she does of runway outfits. My favorite is the last picture there.
And if you would also notice how the first picture is a book, yes- that's the book she wrote. What Shall I Wear Today? I would like to buy it but sadly its $50 in the U.S :(
Other books I would like to get that I stumbled upon on Amazon last night:

*What Shall I wear Today? Style Secrets of a Furry Fashionista Fifi Lapin

*Classy Derek Blasberg
*How to be a Hepburn in a Hilton World  Jordan Christy
*Fifth Avenue, 5 A.M.: Audrey Hepburn, Breakfast at Tiffany's, and the Dawn of the Modern Woman Sam Wasson
*Breakfast at Tiffany's Truman Capote
*Bohemian Manifesto Laren Stover

Friday, May 20, 2011

Glee True Colors HQ with lyrics

:') Last night in my house at my Dad's. It's kind of mind blowing- two years have gone by and so much has changed. Good and bad...
Remember the good times readers <3

Thursday, May 19, 2011


It's not the Where. It's the Journey.

New Painting: Part One

Canvas Outline

Aqua and Orange/Yellow/Red
This is my painting for Art 1- Free Project. It's a feather by the way, it doesn't look like it yet but yeah.

Glee- I Want To Hold Your Hand + Episode

I can't help but cry every time I hear him sing this :'(


Wednesday, May 18, 2011

GLEE - Defying Gravity (Rachel & Kurt version) [LYRICS]

<3 Kurt!

Somewhere Only We Know - Glee Cast (Warblers)

Granted I haven't Seen the Episode.
I have been listening to this for the past 24 hours!
Problem you say?



College. by Kαтiєϟ☆α ωizαrd¸.•*¨) featuring skinny leg jeans

Ugh. My parents decided to bring up the whole college thing today because the seniors are graduating Saturday. Apparently I need to start ssaving and figuring out where I want to go/ what I want to major in. That whole concept just freaks me out X( I mean I guess I want to go to Washington U of Seattle, but if money's really that big of a deal it's either CU or scholarship. Idk what I want to do though. Write, Act, Fashion Photography... party planners seem extinct. Idk. UGH DX

Floral Top :)

Marvelous, you can't see my Sun Poisoning. :)
Top- $8, Target
Shorts- $15 Target
Shawl- $11 Maurice's

That small hole in the wall is for the fairies to crawl in through and fly through my ears.
JK we painted my bathroom back to white and that's where my towel poll should be. Someone decided not to put anything back though (DAD).
And that's my outfit for today.
Might do a montage, don't count on it. Too much of a good thing isn't funny.
Plus I'm fresh out of humor it feels like right now. I mean I'll laugh if it's funny but.... Actually nah probably not.